12. 31. 20 @ 2359
Last year, on December 31, 2019, I posted a picture on Instagram and asked for one thing –
“2020, please be good to me”
All this time with everything that happened this year (we can all think of a few particular events that has occurred), I thought this year was the craziest year. Maybe it was because of all the events, I was constantly in a confused state of mind. I never knew what to think because almost everything felt either so wrong or too hopeful.
But I asked myself again today, how was this year, really, as I wrote emails to my past mentors and sending my year-end greeting.
I started this blog in a very confused state of mind. I was doing things with no plans, no agenda, no structure, and really, that in itself is also the idea of this blog. I stayed in this state of mind for a long time. But then I realized today as I thought to myself,
“You know what, this year, has actually been a pretty good year for me”
You might think I’m crazy. Yes I might be, but I have my reasons.
I started 2019 with family and school issues. By spring, I had to go seek help from physical and mental therapy. By fall, my physical issues (which was an on and off problem since 2018) met it’s lowest of low and I had to take the last couple weeks of fall semester off in order to get better. I went to multiple different doctors, all of different backgrounds, trying to find the one for me who will really, really help me, and I did. By the end of December 2019, I found someone who literally saved me.
I started 2020 regularly seeing my new physical therapist, and every week, I got better. I started to really see results and felt so much stronger. As I felt myself getting better physically, I also felt myself somehow gaining strength in my own mental self. I realized that a lot of my physical problems are related to stuff that goes on in my head and it helped a lot with literally everything in life. I also just love my PT 🙂 I think of her as one of my life mentors.
I successfully “finished” physical therapy back in July and just last week, I had my first check up since then. I am proud to say, that I have no serious issues so far and that my PT told me I’m on the right track :’)
With my family issues, as I stayed home with my parents since February 2020, well.. for the most part got better. There is still so much for me to know and understand and you know what that’s okay. I will live and learn. That’s all I can really do.
So really in comparison to 2019, 2020 has been a heck of a lot better for me.
I have a lot of things to be grateful for from 2020 for my own personal, physical and mental growth. Thanks to 2020, I also realized many things about humans. Good and bad.
So thank you 2020, for being good to me. But tell your friend 2021, to be better. For everyone’s sake.
Sincerely, Me.
You heard my thought of 2020, now what are your thoughts of 2020?
a Sunday thought 